Change is critical and I think, it is change that defines whether a particular object is dead or alive. Everything we do and what we do not do is only but a matter of change—a change of minds (disparity of minds)—this makes sure change is of every type, regional, demographic, physical, emotional, physiological and yes—global—the whole world can change too! Everything changes everybody and everybody changes everything!
Precisely, I don’t know what to describe here but I have been a chain smoker for several years and I have quit successfully. That’s not all. Addiction to nicotine is often classified to be similar to heroin addiction—to the subject it seems impossible to quit, and for most it actually turns out to be impossible and they quit only when they are dead of it! Let’s be clear about this one, this is not an advisory or a quit smoking campaign, this is precisely about breaking a habit so deeply ingrained that it had become a life habit—what it takes to break such a habit and how it changes the overall framework of your life. Rumi said you can conquer the universe and there is only one way of doing so: you have to conquer your own self! You take charge of yourself and you are in charge of everything else.
Habit—change—habit—change is how good a cycle life is, and successful people live their lives on the dashes I have put between habit and change in the beginning of this sentense. Reinventing ourselves everyday makes us like those little kids who are always happy about what comes to them and what they give back. Being fond of children, I can understand our inability to enjoy simple things that children relish—plain simple moments!
This causerie is my memento engraved on the tombstone of my life as a nicotine addict and a souvenir dedicated to all those who seek to reinvent themselves every moment. Everything that kills me makes me feel alive, or that is how life is, stagnant in operation and fluidic in design. Cupidity, they say, is the launch-pad of human life, where a pie is sought and then a cookie and then a biscuit and then everything after everything else until it all ends with the end of life itself! We get muzzled into an environment that defines everything for and leaves us to only falling in line with it; I would rather pray to God that I be counting stars than money! I would disturb anyone’s comfort zone any further, but a wink to the crazy fellows, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers.
Talking of habits, it is purely the volitional habit of a physician who grabs his patient’s wrist and seeks to measure his pulse while his patient may be complaining of a skin disease. The doctor’s habit here is a peculiar manner which his consciousness bumps into during the course of interaction with his patient. It is not the peculiar consciousness proportionate to the diagnosis rather it is that particular setting which consciousness itself takes, as opposed to the process that makes it up. The habit itself lies separate from the consciousness, implying something we get used to. This ability or quality of getting used to is conclusive and can easily be used in our favor or so I did.
In a place called real life, what we do is what we do most of the time, try to define business and it renders as a process of profit making done repetitively. Habits in a similar disposition are saved responses to past situations or stimuli, if you like. Here the point is what actually triggers a response that is so closely knitted with a past response, a performance, an equation, a point, or a terrible situation as horrible as nicotine craving which in my case used to be a cycle consuming my money and myself all alike. A particular context activates a habitual response, without the facilitation of the objective itself. The point of undeniability is what I want to put across here, taking full responsibility for whatever we are or whatever trouble we are into. It is not having a broad chest after doing a savage act; it simply is when you blame something other than yourself for the circumstances that you knock into and experience the bad times. If you blame something other than yourself then you are giving the control of your life to what you blame. Everything that happens to you is all a matter of what you do, what you choose to do. I don’t want to inspire anyone here; this is something of an experience I am sharing! I thought it was worth it so I did. Quit the blame game that we all play, he did it to me, she did it, my parents did and every person in this world, quit this and I found what I needed. Back to cupidity—I need a hell lot more.